When I am queen, I will do as my conscience dictates. Cate Blanchet, Elizabeth
This blog has been eaten by the internet three times now. As I do, I take this as a sign that no matter how good I thought the offerings were, they weren't right. They weren't what I needed to say. This is a shame because the last one was perfect about ancestral expectations forced upon the young.
However, the Internet ate them so they weren't the right offering.
No Witch for Hire
For years I have preached the idea that you shouldn't take money for psychic talents as those talents are not from you, but Divinity. Money corrupts those gifts. They put pressure on the reader to perform, no matter what. I believed this so profoundly and had met so many charlatan readers that I assumed I was correct. Mama Bridges, my grandmother, was correct in imposing this rule upon our familial line. She taught us to barter for services rendered. For years, I have read tarot and done straight-up Seer readings (no cards, only intuition and medium work) to raise money for my community coven and other worthy causes. I wouldn't even touch the money. My act of barter was for a good cause.
Two things happened very close to each other. A woman I admire, Laura Gonzàlez, the Blue Witch, went full-on witch for hire. I had gotten to know her through Circle Sanctuary and had found her to be a wonderful advocate, ally, and minister. I watched fascinatedly as she promoted herself with confidence and an unapologetic attitude. She was a witch for hire, and fuck off if you didn't like it. I admired that sovereignty.
Then I lost my job.
People around me encouraged me to start making money off the 20 + years of esoteric training I had. I was eager to do this, so I created a new website with services, including Horary Astrology and Geomancy. These are scientific divinatory processes and do not require intuition to get to an answer. I thought this might be a way around the taking money for psychic gifts and only found that you cannot cut intuition out of the process and be successful.
Still, I need to work something other than a corporate job. It was a soul-sucking and life-eating choice that nearly obliterated who I am. I need another avenue of income. I pressed on. My mentor, Judith, suggested I get a reading from Laura at this juncture of great change. I did, with fear in my heart of finding another charlatan, but invested enough in Laura's stellar reputation that I was willing to check my fears at the door.
What transpired was a reading much like the ones I give. She even offered to throw out the cards and intuit my reading. Being poly, I gave her two names of men I am dating and asked which one I should stick with and ditch. The reading was so spot on that I couldn't have expressed my relief if I had considered doing so. She described both men and the circumstances around them so accurately I had to remind myself I just gave her two names in a single-blind way (I picked a name and ascribed it to the first reading and then the second name to the second reading before either reading. She did not know what name went to which reading.). Laura then let me ask some questions about her business and how she was utilizing social media and her website. We left the call with a closer relationship than when we started.
After working on the website most of the day, my husband, Tony, came to my office to see what I was doing. I showed him my website, and he was very excited.
"I am so proud of you," he said, "You are finally seeing the fruition of all the work you have been doing for 20-plus years."
I nervously clapped my hands and made a scared face.
"You need to go talk to Mama Bridges and tell her you need to make some money. It's about time to let that shit go, Dia," Tony said.
That night, as I mulled over his words and the promises my grandmother bade me keep concerning the family gifts, I was scrolling through YouTube and watched a scene where, upon the pain of death, the future Queen Elizabeth says,
"When I am queen, I will do as my conscience dictates."
The thing about a conscious is it can change. What seems right at one time can be revealed as wrong over time, or what appears wrong can be shown as correct. The future Queen knew this. She knew that she would face challenges requiring her to have the absolute right to make decisions as her conscience dictated at the time. She must maintain her sovereignty.
Taking back my sovereignty has been a big step in healing the trauma of my life. As the turmoil of our political landscape ramps up in the US, I have already made declarations as the queen I am. I will go to jail...I will die to defend others' rights and my own because I understand our symbiotic relationship with freedom and each other. I know that as freedom diminishes for one person or group, it diminishes for all. I have told my son I will not run. I will stay. I will fight. I will go to jail. I will die. I will not yield.
Yet, as staunchly as I have proclaimed this, I have allowed the sovereignty of my family to continue to dictate my life. I have deemed Mama Bridges my High Lady, and to my detriment and the detriment of my family, bent my knee to their will and their opinion. In her time and place taking money for psychic gifts was dangerous and potentially life threatening. There was a time when being a witch for hire would have been difficult, ostricizing, damaging to my family. But my son will say that my being a witch was a pivotal point of contention growing up in a small southern town where mom was known as THE local witch. My family paid for my choices already with emotional and physical wounds. What good did not taking money for my psychic gifts do except make being a traditionally unemployed witch author harder?
Witch for Hire
I am officially a Witch for Hire. You can book your Horary Astrology, Geomantic, and straight on intuitive readings off this website (on the Services & Pricing Page). I am a queen taking back her sovereignty. If you don't like it, as Laura says,
"Fuck off."
This blog and its contents are being posted by a private citizen and should not be construed as the opinions or views of Willow Dragonstone Community & Coven, Circle Sanctuary, Pagans with Disabilities and Chronic Illnesses, or any other non-profit religious or non-religious group that this private citizen may be a part of or participate with.
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