I have lost my job.
My corporate job started in May of 2024. I was picked up as a freelance writer for a few months.
I rested.
I crafted – a lot.
I LARPed (Live Action Role Played) – a lot.
I worked a little.
Monday, November 4, 2024 I lost my freelance work. And I was faced with a big decision: find another “job” or create work for myself utilizing the tools I have been honing for years.
Take the next two months to try and find clients who want pastoral counseling, divination services (Geomancy and Horary Astrology), rites of passagework, freelance writing work, finish my book and get it published, and piece together the funds I need to keep my family going.
Then, the election happened.
I teach my students that life is a spiral. I envision it with a 2 x 4 attached.
It comes around and smacks you on the back of the head, saying, “Hey! You! Did you risk it? Did you try to do this thing that seems big and out of your reach? Did you try?”
Depending on your answer, the board leaves you only to come back and smack you on the head again, asking,
“Did you risk it? Did you try to do this thing that seems big and out of your reach? Did you try?”
Depending on your answer….
Part of my income relies on disability payments. It doesn’t cover the nearly $10,000 in medical expenses I incur yearly.. It allows me to work part-time, and my family can still make our obligations, starting with the $10 K medical expenses.
The election was the 2 x 4 of my personal spiral:
“Hey! You! Do you risk it and find your own work, your own way? Or are you going to find a “real” job, a reliable job, an easy job, part-time and continue to do pastoral counseling for free, divination for free, rites of passage at meager rates. Ignore your life’s work.” the Universe, the Morrigan, is saying.
I don’t know about you; I don’t particularly appreciate getting hit in the head by a 2x4.
Over the next few weeks, my website will change, my shingle will be put out, and I will start trying to make my living by my wits, skills I have fostered, and in my own way.
I am not sure how this is going to play out or if I am going to succeed. But I will do what I have always done – trust the Morrigan, my guides, and my instinct.
When the 2 x 4 spiral comes back and says, “” Hey! You! Do you risk it and find your own work, your own way?”
I am going to shout back, “YES. I risked it.”
That will be one 2 x 4 that won’t be coming back to hit me on the head ever again.
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